What do you do when you have man problems? Call up your man friends and hug it out! Yea-ah you call your mother as well but the man friends definitely, because they call you so you can call them. You also schedule that day under the sun because the sun makes everything a- ok. Times like this I miss having a beach but that’s a different story. So did he win...yeah, only in Atlanta does the man win...Will I win next time...I hope so even if I don't I hope I enjoy myself while I'm involved, this one, not so much.

Affairs are supposed to be wickedly fun, sinfully fun, intense, very intense, because I don’t do mild very well, I don’t even do pretend mild. Why do a mild affair when I've been single for so long? So intensely passionate stuff, be it 2 weeks, one month, 3 months, but I just want to know that I have fun for an intensely wicked period and for a while there I thought we were having fun.. But I guess not.

I just can’t stop my head from thinking. Thinking while I was in it of all the lies he must have been telling me and why am I putting myself through those lies. Dishonesty just irks me. Now, that I am not in it, I keep thinking of the few laughs we had, of the few chuckles that he brought me, of the few times when he caved in and showed how much he cared, of the times when I felt good and thought I hope no one takes my joy away.

Alas, they always win.