I am having a hard time thinking straight about non-love issues since my ex, Kevin called on Friday. I told you I am not a very strong person emotionally. I wish I was.

Since then, I find myself admiring my self for extra long in the mirror, dressing up, brushing my hair, putting on make-up, masking my face, and doing my nails. All everyday chores I used to undergo with reckless selfishness in mind, thinking no one wants to see me pretty, no one cares. But now, I think, what if he cares? Don't you want to look good for him? I actually scrapped my cuticles today. I never do that. *bends head down in shame*

I have to focus, focus Anita. You do not need a man in your life right now. Can you handle it? Are you sure you want this particular man now? Can you handle all the turmoil he put you through being replayed right here, right now?




Deciding between my sanity and wanting a relationship now is like choosing between him and him. It was often easy, but now it's all so hard.

My horoscope read: GEMINI If romantic situations have left you confused lately, this week should deliver a fresh perspective. Stay true to your heart's desires and remember that your future is not dependent on the opinions of others. Your creative ideas and vivid imagination should provide you with all the inspiration you need to get ahead.



Love-B Money-C Work-B*
Signs to seek: Libra, Aquarius
Signs to avoid: Sagittarius, Scorpio



See why I am worried? I always get a D for Love. That is the highest grade I have ever gotten for love this year. Highest.
Oh, where art thou is the strength of resistance to come from....