I have this girl from one of my communities who is about as obsessed with Nick Carter as I am with K.R. But for the past month or more since she saw and met him in Boston she hasn't spoken or written any poetry or love notes about him in her journal. You know it kinda makes you start to wonder...what happened when you met him? I had remembered her mentioning something about him partying too hard and about the "girl" he partied with being all trampy but nothng concrete was asserted, and I didn't want to jump into conclusions. So being the nosy poker I am I asked her this:

But don't you like Sir Nick anymore? Since you got back from Boston all somewhat obsessive Nick talk has been pushed to the curb, why so? What happened there, did he not live up to your expectations? I ask because you should know I am also obsessed with some other character : pictured above. so I want to know if when I meet him (knocks on wood) he might not live up to my expectations.



Their reply was:
Subject: Re: what happened?
That wasn't the first time I met Nick...I've met him plenty before that...he always lives up to expectations...ALWAYS nice to me...incredibly nice actually. It's just after Boston I went Nick Stalking (LMAO) down in Tampa...and gathering info...so don't worry...I still love him as much as I ever did...but between not being here, and having other drama, I havent really talked about him much.

I also have my off and on phases...like sometimes I will spazz out and be like OMG I WANNA MARRY ____ and obsess over someone else for a while...just for variety...but I will always love Nick...even when I'm talking about someone else. It's weird...like contrary to what people think...I don't want to really BE with Nick...I want to be friends with him...so when I start to like another in a different way (like want to be with them) it doesn't phase my feelings for Nick because I love him in a different way.


I don't know why her reply made me chuckle. All night I stayed up asking myself these same questions: do I just want to be friends with him? Is just meeting him enough for me? Yes, I do sometimes obsess about other people, so many times, but it's like there is this bond I have with him that keeps me coming back. I go like "I am sorry for straying there. Thank you for giving me a teeny moement to obsess about somebody else but I am back now, and I am sane." And just then someone else pops up. I go for awhile but i still come back...he's still there. The feeling is still the same and I like him just the same. It's absurd, I knw and so childish.

Yesterday they showed clips of Matrix Revisited on ET. I broke down and turned red. I was just thinking about him when it happened. I was thinking about this reply from her, and I was asking myself those questions and then that shaggy hair, stubby beard and deftone voice just popped into the screen. I almost choked on my own spit.

I wish I had her opportunities though. Not like anything would happen I just wish I had them.