My best friend finally called me this morning. We talked like normal..a piss poor, what-to-do-with-our-lives conversation. I am in the process of calling my ex now. I am just waiting for the clock to chime the right time when it is not too expensive to call long distance. Or I may not. The day is not turning out as good as I thought it would. A couple of calls I made this morning sort of strung out the self-esteem from me. What is it with people and experience? Why do they need it before they hire you? Can't you get it on the job? What is it, we were all not born stupid you know, some of us just need about a month and we have the work mastered? So quit asking me if I have experience...geez!!!

I am making the call...I need to release tension. I need to be loved, I need to sustain hope in the face of adversity. I need to be a woman, although.

It's so hard for me to say this
I'm struggling to find the right words
What I've felt is past tense
What I feel you just haven't heard

So, I think it's better that I tell you now
I think it's better that I tell you now

He's so sweet and good, good
I can't let him go