Glimpses of Negro

In other eventful news my ex called today. we talked, that's it, we just talk about nothing. I told him since he left I had developed a new found addiction to BSB, he chuckled. I hate it when people chuckle at my love for BSB. Because it is serious. It is not some crush or something that I have to go through because their love songs make me feel all mushy. No. I really dig them, they are good people and I think they make you think good thoughts, have a nice smile, meet the nicest people. BSB fans are wonderful and their shows are exhilarating. I find myself continually gushing whenever I watch them; they always put a smile on your face that is assured. But then again, he wouldn't understand, one of the few reasons why we broke up, that myopic sense of humor that cannot accept a new thing because they don't understand it. Well, there goes playing BSB at our wedding---if that was ever to occur.

He talked about his plans and how disgruntled my old friends were because I decided not to write or email them. Boo Hoo! My friend upset me and got me involved with a player like him in the first place...it is upsetting though it is not her fault it still upsets me when I think about it. Why would you want to fix your reboudning friend from a nasty breakup with someone who has a girl he is madly in love with and has been for several years...why? He mentioned something pertaining to her as well. Said "somebody" was helping him process his transcripts from school...I assumed it could only be her, because his voice lowered and he got all edgy when I asked him who it was.

"Geez! Are they still together?" This is me with a disgruntled look on my face..."What has it been like 8 years now, when I was with him it was 6, that means they are going on 8 years now because that was 2 years ago. DAYUM!!"

I wonder what he will think when I tell him I am in love with Anthony Kiedis or Vin Diesel, wow, my Vin love cannot be compromised at all. At all. So he better deal with it or ship out. I think he has already shipped out for him to still be with the same girl after all these years. 8 years, that's a long time. Almost as long as my relationship would be with Keanu if he were a real life character...see why I fall for impossible people?!! Real people SUCK!!!