I am such a dork when it comes to New Years! I always feel that since I don't get to spend it with someone special I can at least spend it doing special things. So I did. The 31st was a pleasant day off for me, thank goodness! So off I went first thing in the morning to go see Leonardo get his ass kicked in Gangs of New York. Wonderful bloody film, sorta like Braveheart but without so much heart put in it. I enjoyed his manhood presence in it, and the scenes in which he pretended not to like Cameron Diaz. That kinda love I NEED!


I walked around the mall a little. Then, I drove home stopping by the church to spend some time with our Heavenly Father. I prayed, shared, reflected, wondered, and almost cried at some point, if not for the fact that I was surrounded by people who were also praying, I felt my eyes steam up as I reflected on the year past, and my quaint plans for the year ahead.

Resolutions which I shall not share, I am afraid.


From there, I stopped by Blockbuster and got some movies. Special one: Matrix Revisited. I always wanted to watch that. It was one of the reasons why I got a DVD player, to see Keanu work in the Matrix. And it was wonderful. Keanu, adlibbing, being himself, playing with that unruly hair, working his pants off, laughing, having a good time, me on the couch in total awe with my glass of white wine on New Years eve, what else could a girl ask for? It gave me tingles when I saw him mess up, when I saw him strive so hard to be a perfectionist even to the astonishment of the directors (who didn't look anything like their name suggests) it was a good time. I had a good time watching it, it made me feel like this man is human, he makes mistakes, and you have to accept that about him. I plan on seeing it one more time before I return it and possibly find out how I can own it.


I was almost nodding off to sleep when I realized it was time for the countdown. So I joined in on it on my bed and said a silent prayer for goodness all year round. For the positive, for God to take away the negative, (and the negative responses I had been plagued with) punish my enemies who strive to do me evil, and for God to bless this world so that we shall learn to become accepting of foreigners, strangers, and just people who are not of our kind. We tend to ostracize them too much. That was what the whole Gangs of New York movie was about. I guess it was a good thing I saw it on New Year's eve cos it served as an explanation of the techniques of these people I have come to join. It cleared my head of all the questions and wonder-ment inside it.


Most of all I prayed for LOVE. To fall in love, for someone to love me, and for me to be filled with the peace and love of God.


And if it happens to be Keanu. Hey! all the better. I know it's not. I just like to dream a little.



Happy New Year, all!