2004 - Cause and Effect

Happy New Years to you all!

What a corny start to what I am hoping is a very stimulating, exuberating year of sorts. It's so funny that when a year starts it holds so many promises and surprises for everyone that we start to wonder is it a good thing or a bad thing that we have yet another whole year in front of us. The only person who really knows what that year holds is God! If it's good or bad or in between, He knows, sometimes I wish I could ask Him just so I know if it's worth my getting excited.

Last night I sat by myself and sipped my champagne as the countdown went on, I refused to watch Dick Clark, I just slipped in The Matrix and spent the first few seconds of the New Year trying to decipher why Neo didn't take the blue pill or is it the red one, I forget. I could so understand why Cipher was so angry that he had not been told what lay ahead for him as he chose that other pill and went down the rabbit hole. Yes, they should have told him. And his wrong choice could not be re-written, it's so daunting to watch a movie that poses the question of choice, and cause and effect on such a noteworthy time as New Years, you start to plead with yourself that you would make the right choices in EVERYTHING and that the effect of some of your causes from the years past would not come to haunt you in the new one.

Anyway, enough of the gibberish, it's rare that I watch that movie so deeply I just normally sink into the eye candy and I am good. I guess getting old would do that to you.

Madonna said she does not watch Television. I had read her say that in one of her interviews, that she spends her free time reading books, studying, bettering her craft. No wonder her IQ is superb. I thought to myself, I really should do that I am getting stupid and dense and feeble minded, my mind is consumed with flippant worries instead of the unearthing world views.

So there, that is part of my new years resolution, asides from the obvious--lose weight so that Keanu just may fancy me, there is read, better my craft, spend as much time reading, writing and creating some ideas as possible, and let's see how that goes.

After that I spent a good part of the day cooking--finding out I am not such a good cook--and cleaning up, sadly taking down the Xmas decorations and just seeking out the day to try and get a feel of the new year, 2004. It is a bit perplexing initially. 2003 was a good year for me so I just found it hard to break loose of it. I found myself mumbling in my sleep a prayer that new years alone shall soon be a thing of the past, shall they now? It is so troubling to me that I had to think of it even in my sleep! Even in my sleep...the alone time is good, I have fun with myself, but I know it would be better shared with someone.

Here's to 2004, the year I turn 30 and to all my deepset dreams, that they shall find their way to fruition.

Amen!