TMI Health Update

Well, I do not have AIDS. 

I think. 

They said my blood was non responsive to HIV antibodies. I have to ask my friend who's a doctor to interpret that for me, but yeah. I suppose I was excited about it that I took myself out to dinner on Wednesday night and then, I resumed my sexual tirades with Uninteresting Guy.

I think I am investing too much thought into thinking about this guy. He disappoints me in so many ways. Some of the new disappointments just started, to the point I think he may be having an affair, and I feel so dirty after we have sex together, like I've just been used, I don't feel special or wonderful or worse off loved.

Moreso, I am having girl problems down under that I have to get pills for today. Apart from that I think I should retrace my steps back to sanity. Everytime he looks at me, really looks at me, I feel loved for one brief second, and then, when we get into it, it's so dirty and nasty and it should be gentle and soothing.

That's my rant for today, about a situation I can stop. I will tell him when I do hear from him. That's another thing, he doesn't call as often as he used to, he doesn't inquire about me or my wellbeing. So, it's pretty unclear how I feel right now.