This weekend I said goodbye to 2 very important people in my dwindling love life. My crush and my muse.

Both of them bearing the same name surprisingly---Ryan.

My crush has officially stopped work for the summer and moved back to college, and I officially and finally quit my other job, the one in which my muse is housed. So he still works there but I don't, and I still work in the same establishment as my crush but he doesn't anymore. It is so weird to go to work knowing that I don't have that to look forward to, I don't have him to distract me, and I don't have his face to charm me. It reminds me of when I was so into Sola and he would leave school to go home early and there would be no reason for me to stay in school once he's left. I would soon leave some days later. There would be no point to my days, no depth to my life.

And it already felt weird saying goodbye to my muse on Saturday, telling him I would miss him immensely and having him laugh shyly the way he did, pretending that he wouldn't miss me too. The living A rating in my love life has dropped astonishly to a D at this point.

Feel as empty as a drum, don't know why it didn't come. don't know why it didn't come.

Am I being unneccessarily emotional about this, I guess but I am that emotional towards stupid things, I don't have a pet and I don't have cuddly animals I hold onto. I just have facets of little amusements in my life, and I cringe when I don't have them to make me quiver with happiness. I sink into this little pity party.

Horoscope:

GEMINI
You may find that there just aren't enough days in the week for you to manage everything that you have to deal with. There are bound to be a number of important decisions that will require quite a bit of your attention, and you might have to put a few things on hold while you're busy trying to make some progress.

Your luck this week:
Love-C Money-B Work-B*
Signs to seek-Libra, Leo
Signs to avoid-Sagittarius, Virgo