bitter

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I develop this strange addictions to stuff and it just becomes a habit. Lately, it's been icecream, about 3 heavy scoops of icecream as dessert every single night of the week. How bizarre is that?

I want to lose weight, I swear I do, I have never hated my body anymore than now I presently do not own any clothes that fit perfectly they either grab me in uncomfortable areas and I am aware of all this but yet I gorge icecream at 10:30 at night, and then I don't have the resistance to stop going for seconds. It's insane.

I was watching queer eye for the straight guy tonight and they said you know what is sexy, confidence, when you look goood, and you feel good with yourself nothing builds sexiness like that. And it's true you lose all sight of how you should truly feel and look down on the ground half the time because you are not confident enough and you can't play to win if you are not confident. Just like the movie "Catch me if you can" emphasizes.

I should not be this pitiful and full. I have no self control. It's bad. I am so bloated that I can't go to bed right now because I am so filled up with milky icecream.

No, Anita. Bad Anita.

Somebody tell me how to stop. this is the chief cause of obesity in people. They do not make the right choices, they do not know how to build the resistance to have one round of food and that's it. WE always choose to super size our meals or eat large grotesque portions of fatty foods, eg icecream.

bad Anita. Stop doing this to yourself.

My Name is Anita and I am an eataholic.

That's my story.