It's not ex-boyfriend day is it?

It must be ex-boyfriend day and I missed it on the calendar.

I installed Yahoo Messenger on my computer at work so I can while away time just as much as my other co-workers do at work especially now that we work extra long hours.

Who hits me up on my computer today. Ex boyfriend no 1. of cos it always has to be the guy that broke your heart into several minute pieces, who never gave a shit and who thought your feelings was something to be played with. Yes, that ex boyfriend, who IM's you all excited that he was finally able to reach you and wondering why you never tried to reach him. Maybe because I am trying to save my ass from your despicable self. We chat and I give him my phone number, (stuoud mistake) knowing he is going to call excessively. It don't matter, I am hardly home to take the excessive calls.

Twenty minutes later, ex no 2 IM's me. Hey, former love of my life, howya been, he asks? Yes, I was to him the love of his life. This guy is opposite of the first guy. I broke this one's heart. I liked him at first, he wasn't serious, as the Gemini I am I lost interest after I had wooed him senseless with my poetry and charm, he falls hopelessly but by then it's too late, I am on to someone else.

Would I like any of these men to come back into my life, I don't know. I know cheesy ex no 1 wants to come back so bad, his pride doesn't want to let him just say it openly. I miss you and I am sorry for the past. Why do men find it so hard to say that? But ex No. 2 seems to be running from me, I am probably too complicated for him right now.

I just want to be in a different place, be a different person, more focused, less on the impossible if I can help it, and just more shirking of all these men I left in my past. It would be better if I had what it takes to get some worthy guys now, but I don't, I haven't been able to.

I feel like I should write to ex no. 1 and apologize and ask him what he's like now, what his love life's like right now. And find out why I somehow "like" him a lot better than I do no. 1.

What's cheesier is ex. no. 1 just called wants me to stay in touch.

Is it too early to say dream on?