Keanu Withdrawal

I am suffering from Keanu withdrawal.

I went to work so downcast this morning.

I am broke. I have a dozen and one bills that need to be paid and there is no money coming in. I feel like I need a Keanu fix to escape it all but I can't afford the $11.50 fee to go see him on IMAX, no matter what, not even to charge my credit card with it.

So I suppress it and go to work and hope, pray for a good Monday.

The day goes by fast, a couple of rude clients. They call back to apologize. This never happens.

On my way home, it takes me an hour and a half to get home. 90 minutes of my life. I am angry, upset, frustrated by the traffic, and then, I just ignore it and try to exhale even though it goes back into me.

I get home. Eat a salad. Is thrilled that there isn't a new bill in my mail. I open my online inbox, and I see a message to the Yahoo group I moderate. Some new member is upset that I didn't say Hi to her. Can you fucking believe this, she is upset that we didn't welcome her. I have never heard such total bullshit in my life. I am upset and infuriated that she would fill our inboxes with such an angry mail, it was annoying even for me.

I respond. Politely. Now, I am sitting here thinking, how angry am I? What would cool me down asides from a slow screw from the man himself.

It's been bad. Crummy. Monday. Bad traffic, bad email, I didn't peel the skin off my chicken and I have a dozen unpaid bills.

So, I need a Keanu fix. Everytime I get upset I always think how cool and calm he often is, and I think, Calm down Anita, this isn't something to be mad about, you know. My angry self turns to Russell Crowe type personality and a Keanu type persona is the only thing that can cool me down. This may not make sense.

Anyone have an extra ticket to Matrix Reloaded on Imax?