I am fine.

A little bruised on the ego bit but I am fine. The events of yesterday with the whole crush confessional ordeal just hit my ego big time, and it left me wondering, if he could tell a total stranger, well, someone he is not the best of pals with this itty bitty detail of my talks with him how much more has he told the rest of the clique he has been hanging out with.

But I am fine. Last night, I stayed awake talking to my best friend's brother who always finds a way to crack me up. My friend is in London right now and may be coming here by next week tops. Maybe it is her number that's been dialing mine and I've been wondering who it was. Anyway, it feels good to know that real friends are on the way and hopefully all this lonesomeness will be clarified.

I woke up this morning slightly downcast, urging myself to forget about it, and I did, well until I got to work and thank goodness he wasn't there!

I just asked God to let me wake up one day and ask myself, "What was I thinking?" That day cannot come any sooner. It'll be better if he stopped hanging around me so much whenever he's working. He always comes to sit with us, or listen in on our conversations or just ask us a question sometimes even flirts with the other girl I work with. Why is he doing that, I wonder at times? But that day SHALL come, I see it in the future. I am Gemini, we forget people just like that. *snaps fingers*

I came home today slightly torn up that I don't have any wild weekend plans so as a consolation I glued my eyes on Sweet November. Let me feast my obsession on Keanu for now. It's healthy and holds less risk of ego damage.