This was supposed to be for yesterday:

First:

I am high. I just had a chilled beer and some pizza and it succeeded in making me very high and sufficently inebriated to do some good writing. I wish this high lasted quite some time but unfortunately it doesn't. It faeds after about half an hour. Darn it!

Today at work, we had some bankers have an after meeting luncheon thing at our place. It was pretty exciting. When the lady said her AA set it up, I wished I had that AA's job. But small steps my dear, today I played the part of the restuarant AA tomorrow, it may actually be me setting the luncheon up.

I thought about my non-sexual state last night. I thought that maybe I am giving it too much air and thought time. I know I am an attractive woman, charming and very sensual. If anyone doesn't want to read the tell tale signs that I want them to screw my brains out then maybe there is a reason, like another girl, or gay, or just something.

I decided not to give it too much thought so much as to make it my priority or otherwise unless when the actual act may eventually happen I may have a lot less moaning and so much more fantasizing to do instead of just going with the flow. Besides, my mom is around, nothing like your mother to ruin your libido.

I am still so fucking high I can't believe it.

*Hums to herself sweetly.*